Disclaimer: See part one.  Paiute language is in Lucinda Handwriting font.

Thank you to all reviewers, and I hope that you continue to enjoy.

 

 

 

Sacrifices Part III

 Going Home

By:  Becky H.

 

 

That smell…the familiar smell of burning flesh and hair…but the screams.  Was it branding season?  Who was screaming?  And why am I on the ground?  Ben raised his head, and memory crashed upon him.  Abigail sat next to him, rocking as she wailed.

 

Paiutes!  JOSEPH!!..No!…no..He stumbled upright, ignoring Abby’s grasping hands, and fell to his knees near Adam and Hoss.  So much blood…The sight of their clasped hands unmanned him, and he collapsed, sobbing.

 

A cold part of his mind, one he hadn’t needed in many years and hoped never to need again, woke up and began speaking.  Get control of yourself! Your sons need you.  Joseph is dead—beyond your help.  Your responsibility is to the living.

 

“Adam?…Hoss?”  He couldn’t seem to still his trembling hands as he touched his boys.  Still alive!  Abby was hysterical, but also alive.  Ben resolutely ignored the other ghastly details his brain had absorbed upon awakening.  But the glimpse of the smoldering fire was emblazoned on his heart.  The knife coming down, flashing in the sun…his youngest son’s cries.  Boot heels protruding from a rough fire pit, flashes of white, the bloody knife lying next to the pyre…oh Joseph!  He ruthlessly shoved the images away in his rush to save the rest of his family.  He would return later to collect what lay in the fire pit.  Yet, for right now, his obligation was to the living.

 

 

 

Movement under him, warmth at his back, the steady thump of a heartbeat, and the gentle rise and fall of a man breathing.  He shivered and moaned as the pain shot through his head. 

 

“..pa..Pa, it hurts…”

 

Red Eagle’s arm tightened, drawing the boy closer still.  Pain-dulled eyes, fluttered half-open, then closed as the boy moved his head slightly, relaxing as he pressed his ear against the man’s chest.

 

The boy’s movement, the trust in his eyes broke something open within Red Eagle’s heart.  “You will be my son, now.  If my Raven will have you.”

 

 He Thunders overheard his chief’s whisper to the captive.

 

“You will have him in your lodge?  He will be family now?”

 

“Yes.”

 

“It will cause…difficulties with the young braves..”

 

“They will forget…and come to accept him.”

 

He Thunders looked dubious, but he kept his own counsel.  Red Eagle would have to discover for himself how high the feelings ran against whites among the people.  Red Eagle is a well-respected chief, and it was his only child, his son, who paid the greatest price—perhaps his view will prevail.  Time will tell.

 

Red Eagle signaled his friend to take the lead.  They would travel single-file up through the narrow draw and then climb to the high plateau.  He had made the decision to move their camp three times this last winter, and now that it was spring, he would move his people higher up into the mountains.  The hunting was still good, and they would be further still from the valley-dwelling white men.  His leadership had spared his people the decimation through disease that other valley Paiute tribes had suffered.  I will protect my tribe, my people.  His arm pulled the boy closer.  I will protect all that is mine.

 

 

Ben righted the buggy with the help of Cochise.  His heart ached when he touched Joe’s mount.  My son…my baby, lost to me…But he needed the horse’s strength to lift the buggy off of John.

 

He had led Abigail to sit next to Adam and Hoss, who were now both awake—after a fashion.  Hoss’s head had been creased by an arrow, and he was mostly aware, but in great pain.  Adam had two wounds, one to his left shoulder and one in his right calf.  Both arrows had broken off and would need to be dug out.  Ben shuddered at the thought.  So much pain, and more to come.

 

Adam’s weak voice broke into his thoughts.  “Pa…Uncle John—is he all right?”

 

“I think so, son.  Just unconscious.  I didn’t feel any broken bones.  He must have hit his head when the buggy flipped.  There’s blood in his hair.”

 

Adam closed his eyes.  He was so tired.  He knew that part of his weariness was blood loss, but he had a feeling of urgency as well.  He had to tell Pa something…What was it?  He tried to concentrate.   Something about Joe…

 

“Aunt Abigail.  Get Pa.  When she didn’t move, Adam struggled to turn his head toward her.  “Aunt Abby..help…”  She’s not even looking at me, staring past me.  What happened to her?  Her hands..clutching the sparse grass and aimlessly pulling it up.  Hands opening and closing---A picture surfaced, flashing across his mind like a stone skipping across the water.  Joe!  Just there, where she was.  Squeezing the soil through his fingers.   Joe, on his knees before the Paiute leader.  Where!?!  Adam lifted his head, tried to see past her.  “..joe?”  His head fell back. Too weak now.   So tired.   Trust Pa.  Pa will take care of Joe.  His eyes closed.

 

 

It was full dark when the band of warriors entered the high meadow encampment.  By the light of the central fire, Red Eagle watched as his braves dispersed, mixing into family groups and murmuring quiet greetings.  He had brought them back safely.  None were missing.

 

He heard the exclamations of delight as the three babies, born in their absence, were held for the first time by their proud fathers.

 

Raising his voice, he quieted them.  We will hunt tomorrow and then have a feast to welcome the new members of our tribe.”

 

He did not explain the bundle in his own arms, sure that those who had just returned would spread the word.  By morning, every one would know what he had done—and not done.  He turned his face toward his own lodge where Raven waited.

 

 

Ben watched as his hands untangled the harness and checked over the team. The fingers moved as if they belonged to someone else.  He felt detached from the hands running over the horses’ legs.   Just bruised and spooked, thank God.  How would I have managed to get everyone home with no team for the buggy?

 

 Somehow, his hands continued on even while his mind screamed accusingly at him.  Your son is dead!  His burnt remains are right over there—look at all that’s left of him.  You failed! Failed to keep your boy safe.  He pushed the thoughts away, and struggled to concentrate on what needed doing.

 

He managed to get John into the front and leaned him against the now silent Abby.  Throwing aside the luggage, he propped Adam and Hoss in the back, happy that Hoss was conscious enough to follow his simple commands.  Adam’s still, white face mocked him.  So much blood on his oldest son.  Hang on Adam…so much blood.

 

As he tied Cochise to the back rail, he saw movement over by the rocks.  He froze.  No weapons!  I must protect my sons!  I cannot fail again!  Oh Lord, Kathleen!!  His niece stumbled forward, her dress dirty and torn, both hands cradled to her chest.

 

“Kathleen…are you all right?”

 

No answer.  Ben lifted her to sit on Cochise, making sure that she could hang onto the pommel.  She stared through him, her brow furrowed.  Shock?  I see no wounds on her, but it looks like she took a tumble…Have to chance her riding, no more room in the buggy.  I’ll have to go slow.  Please..God..let me get them home.  Alive. 

 

 

 

Raven moved aside, allowing Red Eagle to enter their home.  She stood in silence, her eyes on the blanketed shape in her husband’s arms.

 

He laid the boy down, gently positioning his body near their pallet of soft skins.

 

She came forward and knelt next to him.  “What have you brought into our lodge, husband?”

 

She could see the uncertainty in his eyes…uncertainty and something else—something she had not seen there since their son…since Naavik died.  She touched his shoulder, wanting him to look at her.  Yes! Your eyes have lost that dead look…but what does this boy have to do with you, with us?

 

After a moment, he looked away from her and began to unwrap the boy.

 

“He needs water.  We traveled without stopping.”

 

“His head is bleeding.”

 

“The young ones were very angry.  They wanted to kill…wanted blood spilt, but I could not allow it—not to this boy, nor to his family.”

 

He built up the fire as she ran her hands across the boy’s smooth face, turning it to examine the nicks and bruises.  Her fingers glided over his split lip.  “Why did this happen?  Why was his head scraped like this?”

 

“To convince his father, his family..”

 

“Of what?  That he was being scalped?”

 

“Yes..”

 

“Why?”

 

“So they would not look for him, not search us out except, perhaps, to avenge his death.”

 

“But why bring him here?  Why not kill him—as the whites killed our son.”

 

“His spirit spoke to me.  He is a part of Naavik, and even in his fear, he challenged us.  He mourned our son and gave him honor.  He had Naavik’s birth totem around his neck, and..” He picked up the boy’s limp arm, showing her the scars. 

 

“This boy is Laughing Eyes?”  Her own eyes widened.

 

“Yes.”

 

“And you wish to replace our son with this…this boy?”

 

“No!  No..not replace, never replace—But I want a son again, and Naavik chose this one as a brother…”

 

“And in your reasoning, that makes him our son …”

 

“Only if you will have him—Raven, if you had seen his sorrow when he heard of Naavik’s death…he loved him.  This boy loved our son…”

 

Red Eagle looked at her with a mixture of despair and hope in his eyes.  Oh husband, I would do anything to keep that light from leaving your eyes again.  If only the Great Spirit had blessed us with other sons and daughters.

 

He read her answer in her eyes and touched her hair lightly.  “You do trust me, Raven.  You will see, when the boy awakens, you will see what I saw.  He is special.”

 

“But the tribe—will they accept him?” 

 

He looked away, then down.  “We will find out tomorrow at the naming ceremony.”

 

She nodded, distracted by the shivering she felt under her hand.  She pulled the heavy skin over the boy and brought the dampened cloth up to clean the dried blood off his face.  His eyes opened suddenly, startling her.

 

“…thirsty..”

 

“I will clean you.  Lie still.  You are injured.”

 

“Where is my family?  She jumped, surprised at his fluent use of their language.  He tried to sit up, but she easily overpowered him.

 

He panted.  “Please!  Let me up!  My brothers are…”

 

“Your family is dead to you, as you are to them.”

 

Joe jerked his gaze toward Red Eagle.  “Dead!?  Pa..Hoss…Adam..

Dead?  No.  No!  You said that you would only take one life—one.  My life..”

 

The boy struggled to escape Raven’s grasp.  Red Eagle was beside her in an instant, pushing Joe flat against the soft skins.

 

“You gave your word…your word…”  His head fell back, weariness claiming him.  But his accusing eyes never left their faces.

 

“I did take just one life—yours.  Your life as you knew it is gone, is dead.  You will begin your new life tomorrow, as a son of a Paiute chief.  Your new life as my son.”

 

“I’m not your son!  Ben Cartwright is my father!  No!  You cannot do this!”  Joe tried to lift his head, tried again to ask about his family.  Were they alive?  Did they find Kathleen?  But pain, sorrow, and exhaustion claimed him and he fainted.

 

 

Hop Sing heard the buggy and hastily lit the lamp.  He hurried to the door, throwing it open as Ben stepped up onto the porch.  He directed Abigail and Kathleen by their elbows.

 

“Hop Sing…Help me.” 

 

Mr. Cartwright looks as if  he’s about to fall down.  And his eyes…they are full of sorrow.  What has happened?  Hop Sing’s mind conjured up all manner of circumstances that would have delayed them, but he wisely kept his speculation to himself and his mouth closed.  He guided the silent women into the house, sitting them down near the fire.

 

After the injured men had been cleaned, bandaged, and put to bed, there was nothing to do but wait for the doctor.  With every passing minute, Hop Sing became more frightened for his oldest friend.  He will not talk, and refuses to meet my eyes. 

 

Hop Sing placed a bowl of soup and a cup of coffee in front of Mr. Ben’s slumped form.  “Eat.  Then rest.  The doctor will be here soon.  You will see, family will be fine.”  He prodded his employer until Ben picked up the spoon and began to eat.

 

Abby and Kathleen had fallen asleep on the settee, and Hop Sing had decided to let them rest.  Sleep is a healer of mind and body.  Now if only I can get Mr. Ben to rest.  Maybe when he awakens, the light will return to his eyes. But it is enough for now that he is home.  Hop Sing stared into the fire, wondering about the missing Cartwright. He had started to ask about little Joe several times, but something had stopped him.  Perhaps I do not ask because I fear the answer.  I have not seen Mr. Cartwright act this way since Missy Marie died…what will it do to Mr. Ben, to all of us, if Joseph has joined his mother?  I fear for my family…

 

To be continued…

 

 

RETURN TO LIBRARY