The Game of Revenge

 

By Tina Oney

 

April 4, 2002

 

Beta by Starlite, with many thanks from me. The gift of words is a precious gift. Thanks so much for your help.

 

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Ben Cartwright moaned aloud when he slowly awakened.  His head pounded and he reached up to touch the gash on his temple.   Blinking slowly, he opened his eyes.   Looking to his left he saw the unconscious form of his long time friend Roy Coffee.  Suddenly he remembered, Adam!   Ben grunted as he rolled over and staggered to his feet.   What was left of the door to the jail was lying in pieces on the floor.  Ben staggered into the back of the jail already fearing what he would find. He felt the cold hand of fear grip his heart, Adam was no longer in the cell.  Turning he headed back towards the open doorway. He could hear drunken laughter and raucous cheering coming from the direction of the livery, and made his way toward the sound.  Rounding the corner of the jail that faced the livery, he paused briefly when he saw his eldest son astride a horse, a rope tightly drawn around his neck with his hands bound behind him.

 

“NO!”    Ben Cartwright called out in horror.

 

Adam shouted a warning to his father, “Pa, get out of here!” 

 

Father and son's eyes met, and Ben could clearly see the fear in Adam’s eyes.   Ignoring his son's plea, Ben moved forward toward the horse.

 

A trail hand smiled seeing the mighty Ben Cartwright stumbling toward them, then raised his hand and smacked the horse soundly upon rump.  In its haste to escape, the horse nearly trampled the elder Cartwright as it bolted away from the alleyway.  The rope made a popping sound, which echoed throughout the dead end of the alley, as it was suddenly pulled taut with the weight of Adam’s body.   Ben gasped in horror and felt his heart break like shattered crystal, seeing his beloved firstborn son’s life taken so violently.

 

The trail hand grinned at the older man's horrified dismay; “You won’t buy his way out of this one now, Cartwright.”

 

Ben never heard the man's words, as he slowly staggered like a man who had a few too many, toward his oldest son.  The sound of hoof beats could be heard riding hard up the main road, Ben’s younger sons and the men from the Ponderosa rode into town.   Fearing for his son's safety, Ben had sent his younger sons for men from the ranch, so they could help protect Adam’s life.   That help, sadly had arrived too late.

 

The motley crew of trail hands quickly dispersed when they heard the sound of the arriving men.   Ben Cartwright was too shocked to be aware of anything taking place around him while he slowly moved toward his son.   Tears rolled freely down his face, and he stopped to stand alone in the dusty alley before the dangling limp body of his child.  

 

Hoss and Joe Cartwright rode to the jail where they found Paul Martin kneeling over the body of Roy Coffee.

 

“What happened? Where's Pa and Adam?”  Little Joe questioned, his voice rising in panic.

 

Paul Martin slowly glanced up from his work. The look on his face told the boys their worst fear was about to be realized; they had been too late.   In response, the doctor nodded toward the alleyway that led to the livery.

 

"Where's Pa?"   Hoss demanded, his fear masked by a growing anger.

 

Shrugging his shoulders before replying, Doc Martin answered, “I’m not sure, Hoss.”

 

Leaving the doctor to his work, Hoss and Joe returned to their mounts and quickly directed them down the alleyway toward the livery.  The scene that greeted them made their stomachs turn.   Alone in the dirt-covered street stood their father, his shoulders were slumped forward and his head bowed, standing before the slightly swaying body of their older brother. Joe and Hoss quickly dismounted and rushed to their father’s side.

 

Joe gently touched his father's shoulder and quietly said, “Pa…”

 

Ben slowly collapsed to his knees at the compassionate touch of his youngest son.   Joe and Hoss attempted to ease their father’s descent to the ground.  

 

Joe could see the large gash upon his father's head.  Looking over at his brother’s face, Joe could see the tears freely rolling down Hoss’s cheeks. Joe’s lower lip quivered and his voice broke as he spoke, “Pa, you're hurt. Let’s get you over to Doc Martin.”

 

Ben whispered absently, “No, I’m…” he swallowed, his mouth felt so dry, “Hoss, you and Joe please, cut your brother down.”

 

Nodding, Hoss took a deep breath, “Ok, Pa,” his voice also a mere whisper.

 

Hoss stood up; then took Chubb’s reins to walk the stallion under his brother’s dangling legs.   Turning back to his younger brother he directed, “Joe, come over here and steady Adam.”

 

Joe rose slowly to his feet and walked to his brother’s side. Reaching up, he took a hole of his oldest brother’s legs. Hoss moved to where the rope was anchored and untied the knot holding it in place.  Now released, the rope slid freely and Adam’s body slumped forward onto the black stallion.

 

Angrily swiping the back of his hand across his eyes to remove the bitter tears that blurred his vision, Joe reached up to remove the rope from around his brother’s neck.

 

Hoss quietly arrived at his younger brother's side and pulled his knife from his front pocket and cut the bindings on his brother’s wrists.   Turning to Joe, Hoss's voice broke as he addressed Little Joe, “I’ll take Adam over to Doc Martin’s.”    With tears clouding his eyes, Hoss then mounted his horse and pulled his older brother’s body close.  Frowning in his father's direction, he continued, "You think you can handle Pa?”

 

Joe nodded his head sadly, “yeah, Hoss, I’ll bring him.”

 

Holding his brother’s lifeless body tight against his chest, Hoss slowly made his way out of the alley.

 

Joe sadly moved to his father’s side and placed a loving arm across the older man's slumped shoulders, “Come on Pa, let’s get you taken care of.”

 

Ben looked up into his youngest son’s eyes, “Oh Joseph… I couldn’t stop them. I couldn’t help him.”

 

Tears slowly rolled down the younger man's cheek, and with a quivering lip whispered, “I know Pa. I’m so sorry that we were too late.”

 

Ben hugged his son to his chest.  He realized his younger sons were feeling as guilty as he was.  “Joseph, son don’t do that to yourself. This was not your fault.”

 

“Why Pa? Why did they do this?”   Safe in his father's reassuring embrace, Little Joe allowed himself to collapse into his father’s arms and sobbed into the older man's chest.  “Oh Pa, what are we going to do without him?”

 

“I don’t know son. I just don’t know…” Ben hugged the boy tighter, he had no idea how his family would survive this terrible act.

 

In a window above the tragic scene, a man smiled as he watched the heartrending scene unfold in the alley below.   Hearing a shuffling of bedclothes behind him, he glanced back towards the bed.

 

So far, his plan had worked better than he had dared to imagine.   Seth Johnson meant to destroy Ben Cartwright and he had made a good start, for the man below was certainly suffering.   A sharp knock at the door broke his reverie and drawing his gun, he approached the door.  Placing one hand on the knob and his ear close to the crack in the door, he called out.

 

“Who is it?”

 

The disembodied voice answered, “It’s Bobbie Joe.”

 

Seth Johnson opened the door and allowed a younger man to enter the room. “We’re ready to move.”   The younger man stated dipping his head in the direction of the bed.

 

Seth nodded in response before glancing over his shoulder towards the bed.   “Let’s move.”

 

Bobbie Joe leaned out the opened door and motioned to some men who were loitering in the hall.   Seth Johnson returned to the window and watched as the young man in the green jacket help his father to walk down the alley away from the livery. Smiling broadly once more, he announced to the room at large, “I’ll be back real soon, Cartwright.” 

 

Reaching down, he retrieved his coat from the straight back wooden chair that sat near the window.   He pulled on the coat while he strode across the small dingy room, only stopping briefly at the doorway to survey the room before turning to make his way out the door.

 

Hoss Cartwright carried his brother’s lifeless body into the office of Dr. Martin.   Paul Martin sadly shook his head at the sight.

 

“Here Hoss, let’s put him in this room.”

 

After gently laying his brother’s body on the bed.   Hoss silently stood beside the bed, then whispered ;  I'm sorry Adam.”  

 

Hoss’s teary eyes turned to the family’s long-time friend. “Doc, Joe's trying to get Pa to come get his head taken care of.  I had to bring Adam…” 

 

Unable to say more, Paul Martin watched as the big man crumbled.   A deep mournful sob escaped from the big gentle man’s tortured soul.  

 

Paul moved to comfort him, “I know Hoss. I’m so sorry son.”  Patting the big man shoulder to offer solace, he continued, “That’s it Hoss, let it all out.”

 

Joe helped his father into the doctor's office.  They could hear Hoss’s heart wrenching sobs.   Ben Cartwright bowed his head for a moment before taking a deep breath, then moved toward the room he knew his son was in.  As he stepped to the closed door, a voice called to him from the next room.

 

“Ben.”

 

The elder Cartwright stopped short of the room, and glancing back over his shoulder he saw Sheriff Coffee lying in a bed.

 

Roy?”

 

Roy Coffee lay with his head bandaged and his right arm in a sling.   He looked sadly at his old friend. “Ben, I…” The elder sheriff glanced down and his lips began to quiver as he spoke.   “Ben, I don’t know what to say.  I… I’ve never failed you the way I did today.   I tried to stop them Ben, but they just got the best of me.”

 

Ben Cartwright nodded his head solemnly at his dear friend's explanation, and for Roy Coffee, an apology.

 

Roy, they got the best of us both.   It wasn’t your fault.  I appreciate what you did for Adam.”

 

Roy shook his head.   “Ben, I don’t know who those fellows were, but I promise you this - I’ll find them.”

 

Ben lips pursed and he looked down at his old friend.  “I know you will Roy.   Are you gonna be alright?”

 

Roy nodded in response.  “Yeah Ben, physically I’ll be just dandy.  But I’m not sure any of us will ever be really alright again.”

 

Suddenly Ben Cartwright felt very old and worn out.  "You're probably right Roy. I know my family will never be the same again.”  Ben glanced away to study a small spot of wallpaper that seemed to be pulling loose from the wall.

 

“Roy, Adam was innocent.”

 

Roy nodded his acknowledgement; his voice was but a whisper when he responded, “I know Ben, but...”

 

With unspent anger, Ben glared back at his friend of so many years.

 

“No buts Roy, my son was innocent!”

 

Roy Coffee shook his head in dismay.  “I never believed Adam was a murderer Ben.  I know we’d have proved him not guilty.”

 

“Just so you know Roy.”   For some unknown reason, Ben Cartwright had felt the need to reaffirm his dead child's innocence.

 

Ben turned toward the opened door, as Hoss stepped into the hall.   Reaching out, he placed his hand upon his big son’s shoulder, “Son, are you alright?”

 

Hoss swallowed hard fighting the large lump he found in his throat.   His big blue eyes welled with tears as he looked helplessly into his father’s empty ebony ones.

 

 “I’ll be ok, Pa.

 

Ben was exhausted, his head was pounding and he was feeling nauseated.   A fine sheen of sweat broke out across his forehead.

 

“Pa, you need to sit down.” Hoss directed, and reached out for his father’s arm to direct him to the nearest bed.

 

Ben’s body shook while his son escorted him to the nearest bed and helped him to lie down.   Paul Martin seemed to appear from nowhere to check the silver-haired patriarch of the Cartwright family. 

 

While the doctor worked to give Ben a thorough examination, Hoss and Joe stood at the side of the bed.  Both could see how pale their father was, and were becoming more and more concerned with his health.

 

 “This is a nasty wound on your head, Ben. Did you lose consciousness?”   Doc Martin questioned as he dabbed at the cut with a soft cloth to clean it.

 

Ben nodded absently, “They knocked me out.”

 

“How’s your vision, Ben?”  The doctor prodded, placing the cloth he'd been using into a small metal bowl and began rearranging some of the instruments on the bedside table.

 

“My vision is fine.”   Slightly offended, Ben stared back at the doctor.

 

Paul Martin was a little pleased with his patient's response, for he felt that the strong family patriarch still had some fight left in him.  Ignoring the slight sharp answer, he proceeded to suture the gash on Ben Cartwright's head.

 

“There's a lot of discoloration here.”  Looking up at the two younger Cartwright sons he instructed, “I want you boys to keep a close watch on your father.  If he acts confused, vomits profusely, or if there is any change in him, I want you to send for me.”

 

Joe nodded quietly as Hoss answered the doctor's instructions.

 

“Yes sir, you can count on that Doc.”

 

Ben stared at the ceiling, now unable to make eye contact with the others in the room.

 

“When will you be through, I need make arrangements to bury my son?”

 

Grimly, Paul Martin looked down at his patient.  “Well Ben, I still have to examine Adam’s body.”

 

Ben’s eyes never wavered from the ceiling, “How long…”

 

Paul swallowed uncomfortably.   “It’ll take me about an hour, Ben.”

 

“Hoss, you and Joe get our horses, and a wagon.  Then come back here and pick up…” Ben took a deep shaky breath and closed his eyes willing his emotions to remain relatively calm, “when you come back, we’ll take your brother home.”

 

Hoss whispered a barely audible, “Yes sir.”

 

Unable to bear the strain any longer, Joe stormed out of the doctor's office.   Seeing his younger brother's outburst, Hoss turned and started toward the door.

 

“Hoss.”

 

Hearing his father's plea, Hoss stopped near the door and turned back to his father.   He found his father's tortured eyes meeting his own.

 

"It wasn’t your fault Hoss.  You and Joe aren’t the cause of this.  You do understand?   I know you got here as quick as you could.”

 

Hoss shrugged his shoulders and silently dipped his head.  “Sure Pa, whatever you say.”  Then the large gentle giant of a man turned and left to do his father’s bidding.

Ben shook his head forlornly; he knew his sons blamed themselves for not arriving in time to help their brother. He had no idea what was he going to do or how he was going to ease his sons' pain, when he didn’t know how to get past his own.

 

Doctor Paul Martin paused at the entrance to the room; then very slowly closed the door behind him.   He'd never relished the task of examining a dead body, but this time it was the body of a man he'd known most of the young man's life, which was also the son of a longtime cherished friend.   Sighing deeply, he rolled up the cuffs of his starched white shirt and approached the bed where the body of Adam Cartwright lay in perpetual slumber.

 

After finishing the grim chore of examining the dead body, Doc Martin pulled the clean white sheet over the deceased once more covering dead man's face.   He stepped back, and proceeded to unroll his shirt cuffs as he continued to study the still form before him.  Paul Martin was confused by his findings, and the unmistakable mystery they held.  Realizing he couldn't prolong the inevitable, he quietly exited the now darkened room.

 

Walking down the hallway, he entered the room where the Cartwright family waited.   He watched while the Cartwright patriarch slowly rose supported by his two remaining sons.

 

Taking a deep breath, the Virginia City physician announced, “I’m through Ben.”

 

Hoss and Joe Cartwright solemnly moved into the darkened room, and then carried their brother out of the doctor's house to the waiting buckboard.   As Ben Cartwright turned to leave, Doc Martin called out to him.

 

“Ben, I’ll be out to check on you in a few days.”

 

His grief threatening to overwhelm him, Ben nodded absently in response, not really hearing the doctor's words. “Your always welcome on the Ponderosa, Paul.”

 

Paul offered a helpless slight smile of appreciation.  “I know, thank you Ben.” He then watched as the proud Ben Cartwright stumbled as he slowly made his way to the front door.  Feeling the need to say something more to his grieving friend, Paul Martin called to him once more, "Ben.”

 

Stopped momentarily, Ben turned back to face the doctor, “Yes Paul?”

 

“I’m truly sorry Ben. I wish there had been something that I could've done.”

 

Ben turned tearful eyes to the heavens and bit his lower lip to try to stem the flow of tears before answering.  “So do I Paul, so do I.   I too wish there had been something I could've done as well.”

 

Paul Martin watched the devastated man leave his home and dropped his head to his chest.   What was he going to do?    He headed down the hallway, stopping briefly at the doorway of Roy Coffee's room before entering the room and closing the door.   Stepping up to the bedside he stated, “ Roy, we have a problem.”

 

The ride to the Ponderosa was morosely quiet.  Hoss had insisted that his father ride home beside him on the buckboard, with Joe following.   Buck, Chubb and Sport had been tied behind the wagon.   As they pulled into the yard, the somber entourage found the ranch hands of the Ponderosa standing quietly, with hats in hand and heads bowed, silently and solemnly waiting for the Cartwright family to return.

 

One of the older hands, Charlie, stepped forward along with two others known as Shorty and Slim.  Charlie respectfully stepped to his boss's side and cleared his throat to speak.

 

“Mr. Cartwright, we would like to take care of Adam’s body for ya’. ”

 

At first, he started to decline the kind offer, but when Charlie added, “Please Mr. Cartwright, it’s the least we can do.  I mean we… we should of got there sooner.”

 

Ben Cartwright gazed into the faces of his long-time hands. Some of these men had been with him from nearly the start of the Ponderosa.  He realized too, that those same men had watched Adam grow into manhood and were probably feeling guilty as well.

 

Ben’s voice quivered as he answered.  “Alright Charlie, put him in the guest bedroom. Hoss, Joe please get Adam's Sunday best.”

 

Charlie smiled gratefully as tears rolled down his cheeks.   “Sure thing Mr. Cartwright.  We’ll take good care of him.”

 

Ben reached out and placed a weak hand upon the man's shoulder then squeezed, with his normally booming voice a mere whisper.  “I know you will, Charlie.”

 

Joe moved to help his father down from the wagon, as the remaining hands moved to care for the horses.  Ben watched the hands disperse with each one taking on a job without being asked.   Ben took a deep breath as he observed aloud, “Boys, we have some great people working for us.”

 

“Yeah we do Pa. Now, let’s get you in the house.”  Glancing about, Joe acknowledged his father's observation.

 

With Joe's hand resting lightly upon his father's arm, Joe and Ben slowly made their way across the yard and into the house.  Entering the great room, the found Hoss coming down the stairs with Adam’s black suit.

 

“Is this what you want him to wear, Pa?”   Hoss inquired, holding up a hanger with a black jacket and pants, and another with a starched white shirt.

 

Unable to bear the sight, Ben glanced away from the clothes held aloft in Hoss’s hands. “That'll be fine, son.”

 

Hoss nodded now regretting disturbing his father with his simple question and quickly made his way to the guestroom.

 

Suddenly feeling very old and tired, Ben turned and started up the wooden stairs.   Once again Joe took his arm, “Pa, let me help you.”

 

Ben weakly smiled at his youngest son,  I’m fine son. You stay and help your brother.”

 

Joe watched helplessly while his father made his way up the stairs. Good maybe he’ll get some sleep, he hoped.

 

Hoss and Joe were sitting in the great room of the Ponderosa.  Both sat staring at the large rock fireplace and the fire they had just built, both deeply lost in their thoughts.  Suddenly from upstairs, the wail of their father’s grief-stricken sobs cut through the still night.  Both sons rushed up the stairs to find their father sitting on the floor of Adam’s room, his arms wrapped tightly around their brother’s tan coat while holding the picture of Adam’s mother.  So shaken by the sight, neither Hoss nor Joe could move and helplessly stood in the entryway to their older brother's room.

 

Joe’s breathing became rapid and his temper starting to flare as he fought to contain his own tears.   “What should we do Hoss?”

 

Hoss shook his head uncertainly, “Be here for him, Joe.  That’s all I know, just be here for him.”

 

Both sons waited for a few moments more, before they quietly moved to their father’s side.   Dropping to their knees, they enveloped their father into their arms and the family then grieved as one.

 

Dr. Paul Martin and Sheriff Roy Coffee arrived at the Cartwright ranch home the next evening.   The great house was filled with the Cartwright’s many friends from Virginia City and the surrounding area; all were paying their last respects to the late Adam Cartwright.  Doc Martin noted how drawn and almost ill, Ben appeared.  He also watched while Ben's sons stayed close to their father, almost hovering.   He smiled at the thought of devotion and love this family had for one another.  Ben Cartwright had done a wonderful job in raising the three boys alone.   When the last of the mourners left, Sheriff Coffee and Dr. Martin looked to the other.  Each was uncertain how to approach the subject with the man they both called friend.

 

Grateful that the long evening was finally drawing to a close, Ben turned to his long time friends and offered, “Roy, Paul, would you care for a brandy?”

 

Paul Martin took an unsteady deep breath before responding.   “No Ben, I’d like to talk with you, Hoss and Joe for a bit, if I may?”

 

Not really interested in a brandy or any refreshment, Ben crossed the large room to sit down in the large burgundy leather chair near the fireplace.   “Certainly, won’t you sit down please?”

 

Roy nodded and sat down on the couch; weakened by his recent injury, he was grateful to rest his now very weary body.

 

Paul shook his head to reject the invitation, and then addressed the man sitting before him.   "No Ben, I think I’d rather stand for now.”

 

Hoss wrinkled is forehead; he could sense that something was amiss.  “What’s wrong Doc?”

 

Paul Martin looked around at the three Cartwright men who were studying him and suddenly felt very self-conscious and uncomfortable about the subject he now needed to broach.  

 

“Ben, I’d like to ask you some questions about Adam.”

 

Confusion was clearly written on Ben’s face.  He glanced briefly in the Sheriff's direction before returning his full attention back to the physician.

 

“Paul, what's this all about?”

 

Paul Martin cleared his throat nervously before he began.  “Ben, I guess I’ve taken care of these boys for about as long as I’ve been a doctor.”

 

Ben chuckled warmly at the thought of the many scrapes and headaches his sons had given the good doctor over the years.

 

“Yes, my boys have really kept you in business, Paul.”

 

Paul smiled appreciatively at his friend's recollection of fond memories and happier times. “I would say that I probably know about every notable scar on these boys.   Wouldn’t you say, Ben?”

 

Ben frowned now puzzled by the doctor's obvious probing.  “Well, yes Paul… Why?”

 

Paul Martin stepped closer to where Ben Cartwright sat.  "Ben, I have something to tell you, and I know it’s gonna be hard for you to believe.  So just bear with me a moment.”

 

Baffled, Ben's dark eyebrows drew into a distinctive furrow causing his lips to frown.   He nodded for the doctor to continue, “Ok, Paul.”

 

Nervous once more, Doc Martin began to pace in front of the roaring fireplace.   “Ben, when I was examining the body we thought was Adam’s.”

 

Ben abruptly interrupted ,  What do you mean thought it was Adam?  It is Adam!   Isn't it?”

 

Paul Martin shook his head, he was both regretful and elated by the news he was about to deliver.   “No Ben, it’s not Adam.  That’s what I need to tell you.”

 

Outraged and in disbelief, Ben rose to his feet and bellowed.  “Have you lost you mind Paul?  Did you forget that I was there?  I saw them hang my son!”

 

Totally understanding his old friend's outburst, the town doctor tried to calm the other man.   “I know Ben, give me just a minute to explain.”

 

Ben fiery gaze of ebony eyes bore into the face of his friend and his voice shook with the implied warning.  “Paul this had better be good.” 

 

From the corner of his eye, Ben saw his other close friend motioning for him to sit back down.   Trying to calm his nerves, Ben blew out a short breath from between barely clenched lips and heeded the advice of the Virginia City Sheriff.

 

Waiting until the silver-haired man had retaken his seat, Paul Martin nodded his head in thanks to Roy Coffee.   The doctor knew he'd better proceed swiftly but with caution.   “Ben, I’ve taken care of Adam a long time.   But I never knew he’d been beaten with a whip.”

 

Aghast, Ben was taken aback by the doctor's blunt statement.  “A whip?  Adam has never been beaten with a whip!  What are you saying Paul, you think I beat my son?”

 

Paul smiled and shook his head by Ben's misunderstanding of his statement.   “No Ben, I know better.  I also never knew that Adam had been stabbed in the chest and abdomen.”

 

Totally clueless as to where this was all leading, Ben just stared at the man as if he had lost his mind.  Seeing he had his friend's total attention, Paul Martin continued.   “Nor was I aware that Adam had ever been in prison.”

 

Ben stood once more, his rage barely contained over the outrageous accusation and the egregious slander of his dead son's reputation.  “Adam hasn’t been in any prison!”

 

Paul Martin smiled like the cat that ate the canary, as his eyes met those of his friend's.

 

“I know.   But the man in your guestroom has.   He has all those injuries and a tattoo from a federal prison on the inside of his left upper arm.  The man who was hanged and whose body I examined was not your son, Ben.   Go and take a look, Ben.  He has heavy scarring on his back from healed wounds that were received by being beat with a whip.  He also has multiple healed stab wounds." 

 

Defiantly the doctor pronounced at last.  "The body and the person wrongly hanged was not Adam.”

 

Stunned and bewildered by the news, Ben backed away from his friends.   His eyes dropped to study the floor trying to digest everything that he'd been told.

 

Is Paul right, could he be telling me the truth? Have I been so devastated that I've been blind to all the things Paul found?   God, please let Paul be right!

 

With newfound hope, Ben turned and quickly moved toward the guestroom.   His two sons followed close behind him, they too wanted to examine the body for themselves.

 

Ben Cartwright froze momentarily to look at the face so similar in appearance to that of his son.   Reaching down and with the help of his sons began to slowly remove the black suit coat and pristine white shirt from his dead man’s body.   He studied the exposed chest and abdomen, and discovered what the doctor said was true - there were healed scars.   More zealous now, Ben whispered instructions to Hoss and Joe.   “Help me turn him over.”

Obediently and eagerly, both sons jumped to help their father.  Ben involuntarily gasped and closed his eyes in abomination when he saw the scarred back of the man lying before him on the bed.

 

To confirm what they all were thinking, Joe stated, “Adam’s back never looked like that Pa.

 

Ben absently nodded his head in acknowledgement of his youngest son observation. “I know Joseph.”   

 

Carefully Ben searched the inside of the upper left arm.  There he found the number of 90457-6A tattooed on the inner arm.   Ben stepped back reeling as his thoughts were drawn back to the day he thought his son had been hanged.  This man, whoever he was, had thoroughly convinced him that he was Adam.   Now disgusted and incensed, he addressed his other two sons.

 

“Get him dressed and get him out of here.” 

 

Without a backward glance, Ben Cartwright stormed from the room, leaving Hoss and Joe totally bewildered.   They looked at each other, then down to the body of a man who had somehow taken their older brother's place.

 

Ben strode angrily back into the great room and the two friends he had left there.   Not allowing them the opportunity to speak, he furiously demanded.   “Where is my son?”

 

 

It was Roy Coffee, in the gentlest of tones, who spoke next. “Ben, we don’t know where Adam is, or even if the boy is still alive.”

 

Hoss stepped out of the guest room, “Pa, what do you want us to do with the body?”

 

Ben hissed barely addressing his middle child over his shoulder.  “I don’t care just get it out of this house!”

 

Roy cleared his throat, hoping that his friend would simmer down soon.   “Umm Ben, I think we need to play this out.   We need for whoever did this to think that they succeeded.   I think you need to proceed with the funeral and burial as if this were Adam.”

 

No longer able to endure such a horrific charade, Ben face darkened and he raged at the elderly sheriff.   Roy , you can’t be serious!”

 

Roy Coffee stood warily and stepped closer to his friend’s side.  Interlacing his fingers and dropping his hands to his waist in a submissive gesture, he offered.  “Ben, someone has gone to an awful lot of trouble to make you think Adam was dead.   It maybe the only way we can get them to show themselves and find out what has happened to Adam.  If they think their plan worked, then maybe they’ll play their hand.”

 

Considering the lawman's words, Ben turned back and returned to the guestroom.   Hoss and Joe had just finished dressing the unknown man and were startled by the sound of their father's voice.

 

“Leave him there boys.”

 

Surprised, Joe’s hazel green eyes shot up to meet his father’s. “Leave him here? Pa, I don’t want him here.”

 

Hoss agreed with his younger brother.  “Pa, why do you want to leave this… this, whoever he is, in our home after what he did?”

 

Ben then explained to his sons the sheriff's plan.  Roy thinks we should play this out.  He thinks we should bury this man as Adam Cartwright.   So tomorrow we will proceed with Adam’s funeral.”

 

Joe practically hissed his objection.  “Don’t say that Pa, my brother isn’t lying here dead.  It's not Adam's funeral!”

 

Ben shook his head over his youngest child's disapproval.  “Someone went to a lot of trouble to make us think that this was Adam, son. We want them to show themselves, so this maybe the only way to find out what did happen to your brother.”

 

Joe thought about it for a moment.

 

 “Then he should get the best funeral money could buy Pa.

 

A low groan emanated from the man lying face down on the bed.  His head felt like a big brass band was marching and playing loudly inside skull.  Slowly he opened his eyes and looked around the room.  Where am I? Nothing looks familiar.  Unsteadily, he pulled his muscular frame into a sitting position on the side of the bed.  Why can’t I remember anything?   Swaying slightly, he rose to his feet and began to walk around the room.   He paused to gaze out the dirty window to stare absently at the baron countryside. As he walked passed the mirror, he stopped to look at the face staring back at him and suddenly realized he didn’t know the person whose image he found in the mirror.  His face paled and he found himself breaking out into a cold sweat - Who am I?

 

Without invitation or warning, the door to his room opened and a tall rugged man stepped into the room.

 

“How you feeling?”

 

Feeling desperate and now slightly sick to his stomach the other man responded.   “Who am I?  Do you know who I am?”

 

Seth Johnson mustered his best warm smile.  “You took a pretty bad knock to your head.”  He watched the other man's face pale even more.  My plan has worked better than I could ever hope. The boy doesn’t know who he is… Seth smiled broadly at his good fortune.

 

 “Why you're my younger brother, Tom.”

 

Addled and more than a little confused by the revelation, Adam Cartwright stared back at the man.

 

“I’m your brother?”

 

Seth nodded, “Them Cartwright’s hit your head prudy hard there, Tom.   Don’t you worry, you’ll remember soon enough.”

 

Still in disbelief, Adam prodded further.  “Do we have any other family?”

 

Seth shook his head sadly but carefully watched Adam out of the corner of his eye.   “Well Tom, Ben Cartwright done killed our Pa and two of our brothers.   So it’s just you, me and Bobbie Joe left, now”

 

Finding the other man's words difficult to comprehend, Adam stared blankly back at Seth Johnson.   “Why did this man kill our family?”

 

Afraid he couldn't maintain the ruse much longer, Seth turned away from Adam's scrutinizing gaze.   “Well, the man has lots of money, and he’s kinda above the law.  He killed them and accused them of being rustlers.  For some reason he thought Pa and the others were stealing his cattle, but we wasn’t.  We was just passin’ through.   He almost killed you, but me and Bobbie Joe pulled you out just in time.”

 

Adam moved to look out the window again; his blood seemed to burn as it coursed through his veins.   “Well, they won’t get away with it. Why didn’t you go to the law?”

 

Seth laughed out loud in a vicious retort.  “ A Johnson’s word against a Cartwright…Hah!”    Seth Johnson studied the back of the black shirt that stood before him gazing out the window and thought, This is working out real good. He don’t remember a thing.  “I mean for’em to pay, boy.”

 

Adam absently nodded his head to the other man's implied threat.   He really didn’t know anything about what had happened between the Johnson's and the Cartwright's, but he could feel the strong family ties.   Adam knew that family and family loyalty was important.   The rest of that week he learned about his family from Seth Johnson.   Day by day, Adam’s hatred for the Cartwright’s grew in intensity.   By the end of that week, Adam Cartwright was ready to help his new brothers seek vengeance upon the almighty Cartwrights.

 

Seth Johnson sent Bobbie Joe and the other men out to scout the Ponderosa and the comings and goings of the remaining Cartwrights.  His interest was mainly in Ben Cartwright.  Ben had testified against his younger brother in a murder trial that had resulted in his brother hanging.  Seth attacked Ben Cartwright shortly after the trial; losing the fight, he ended up spending a week in jail.  Even as he was being taken to jail, he had warned Ben Cartwright that he'd get even for hanging his brother.  Seth had studied the Cartwright family, and knew that Ben’s sons were his only real weakness.  He knew the way to get revenge at the proud Ben Cartwright was to destroy his heart, and to accomplish that he needed to get back at the three sons he had raised alone.   Seth’s initial plan was to rid Ben of his sons but when the Tom Burns came into the picture, his plans quickly changed.   Tom Burns was a drifter, and his uncanny resemblance to the oldest Cartwright son was mind-boggling.  Burns was such a dead ringer for the standoffish eldest son that even his old man, didn't recognize the difference.  How better to make a man pay, than to watch while that son was taken away, then give that child back to him, as a weapon of his demise.   Seth Johnson maliciously smiled to himself, quite pleased with his scheme.  This revenge was going to be sweetest of all.

 

During that week, Bobbie Joe had detailed the accountings of the Cartwright’s comings and goings.   Ben Cartwright had made a trek to his dear departed son’s graveside each morning.  Good, Seth Johnson grinned, that's where we’ll get him.  Tomorrow they would capture Ben Cartwright and once again break his heart before they took his life.

 

It was a beautiful spring day, Ben rode Buck down by the lake and over to his son’s imposter's graveside. It had been a little over a week since Adam had disappeared.   As he did each day, he took off his hat, and then knelt at the grave before silently saying a prayer for the safe return of his beloved first-born son.

 

Seth Johnson observed the older man's pilgrimage before stepping up to the graveside.   Mornin’ Mr. Cartwright.”

 

Startled by the unexpected voice, Ben’s eyes raised to meet the eyes those of Seth Johnson.   “What are you doing on the Ponderosa, Seth?”

 

Seth evilly smiled before responding.  Don’t'cha remember? We’ve got a little score to settle, Mr. Cartwright.”

 

Quickly Ben started to reach for his gun, but stopped as he felt the cold steel of a gun barrel being shoved against the side of his head.   His body stiffened when he heard the hammer being pulled back.  

 

“I wouldn’t if I were you.”

 

Ben Cartwright froze at the sound of the baritone voice; it was the voice of his son.   While Ben slowly raised his hands, the tall dark lean man bent over and deftly removed the gun from Ben’s holster.  

 

Pulling his gun back, he stepped slightly away from the man his brother had called Mr. Cartwright.   “On your feet old man!” Adam ordered with a hiss.

 

Ben Cartwright stood before slowly turning to face his long-lost son.   “Adam?”

 

Taken aback by the appellation, Adam stared blankly at the silver-haired man.   He had a strange feeling he knew this man, but dismissed it as coincidence from the previous encounter his brother had described to him.   He could feel a cold sweat break out on his face and his stammered a short response.  “No.   No, the name is Tom, Tom Johnson.”

 

Slightly bewildered by his son's behavior, Ben Cartwright watched as Seth Johnson stepped behind his son, and then smiled maliciously at him.   “Uh, this is my brother, Cartwright.   The one you tried to kill, remember?”

 

In a sudden outburst, Ben’s eyes snapped to Seth’s face.   “I never tried to kill him!”

 

Mockingly, Seth continued to smile.  “Sure ya did. You killed our Pa, and our brothers.”

 

Ben stared in disbelief as Adam’s long fingers tightened around the grip of his gun.   “No, Adam that’s not true.”

 

With the beginnings of a severe headache, Adam glared back at the silver-haired man.   “I told you my name is Tom.”

 

Hoping to talk some sense into his eldest, Ben shook his head and in a soothing voice said.   “No, your name is Adam… Adam Cartwright, you’re my son.”

 

Without warning, Adam struck Ben across the face with his gun, knocking the older man to his knees.   Adam stared down at his father.

 

“I said my name is Tom.”

 

Keeping an eye on the man now towering over him, Ben carefully dabbed at the blood that trickled from the fresh cut on his cheek.  Tilting his head slightly, he glared up at Seth Johnson.   “This is your doing!  What have you done to my son?”

 

Stepping forward, Seth Johnson flung Ben Cartwright to the ground.   Ben slowly rolled over as Seth reached down and grabbed his shirt to drag Ben to his feet.  He pulled the older man so his face was close to his and snarled.   “You're gonna die Cartwright.”

 

Calmly, Ben Cartwright stared back into the face of the man who had caused him so much pain and grief.  “I’m not afraid of death, Seth.”

 

Seth laughed out loud at the elder Cartwright's arrogance.  “Oh you will be, Cartwright.  You will be, cus you're gonna see each one of your sons go first.”

 

Seeing an opportunity, Ben insolently returned the smile.  “Then I won’t care to die, if they're gone.”

 

Seth Johnson realized his error, if he killed the Ben's son, then the older Cartwright wouldn’t want to live.  An evil smirk crossed his face as he found his solution.  “Then I’ll kill your boys and leave you alive, Cartwright.”

 

Ben steely-eyed gaze never wavered, “then you’ll be looking over your shoulder forever, because if you harm one of my boys, I’ll never rest till I kill you Johnson.”

 

Enraged, Seth Johnson shoved Ben Cartwright toward Bobbie Joe who backhanded him across the mouth knocking him back to Seth.  The two men beat the elder man finally knocking him to the ground at Adam’s feet.   Reaching down, Adam roughly pulled Ben to his feet.  

 

Ben's body was badly battered and he gazed warmly into his son’s hazel eyes.   “I love you, son.”

 

Furious by the older man's expression of affection, Adam struck his father in the face causing him to fall back onto the ground.  Rolling over, Ben painfully pulled his large frame to his knees and looked up at his son.

 

“Adam, I love you son.”

 

Enraged, Adam shouted back at the man kneeling before him, ” Ahh, don’t call me that!” 

 

Rearing back, Adam reached out and kicked his father.  Ben grunted as he was flung onto his back in agony.

 

Adam staggered away from the man who still looked lovingly back at him.   Adam stared down at the battered man lying before him and shook his head as the severe pounding in his head intensified.   Raising his hands to his head, Adam closed his eyes to shut out the pain.

 

Ben was breathing hard, struggling; he was barely able to speak.  “Adam…” 

Ben tried to rise and leaned over on his left arm he continued patiently.   “Son please, listen to me…” Ben swallowed hard, finding it difficult to find the right words to get through to his son.   “I love you, your brothers love you.  You remember your brothers don’t you, Adam…Hoss and Joe?”

 

Adam reached down to his holster and slowly drew his gun. Cocking the hammer back he pointed it down at his father.  “I said shut-up Cartwright!”

 

In severe pain, both emotional and physical, Ben’s eyes teared as he continued to try and get through to his son.   “Adam please, let me help you.”

 

Adam’s hand tightened on the gun he held.

 

Ben’s heart began to race uncontrollably and he could see the sweat as it rolled down Adam’s tortured face.  Ben whispered beseechingly, “Adam don’t do this, please son.  Don’t you see this is what he wants?”  He could see the internal struggle his son was having.   “Try son, please try to remember.”

 

Adam shook his head, futilely attempting to clear it of the pain.   The pounding grew louder as images flashed through his mind blinding him with pain.  Suddenly, the gun discharged, the bullet impacted the older man’s chest throwing him hard to the ground.   With one last groan the silver-haired man lay quiet upon the now bloodstained grass.  As if seeing it for the first time, Adam looked down at the gun in his hand, then over to his father lying motionless on the ground.   His eyes widened in horror, as the red stain grew across his father’s chest.  Memories began to flood into his mind while he stared at his father’s motionless body.

 

“Oh my God, what have I done! 

 

Walking over to the man lying on the ground Seth Johnson knelt down, smiling at his own good fortune.  “How about that Cartwright?  Kilt by one of your own."   Slowly rising, Seth stood before turning to address Adam Cartwright.   “You did good, Adam.   How's it feel to kill your own Pa?”

 

Gazing over, Adam saw Seth Johnson sneering back at him.

 

“You should've seen your old man when they hung ole’ Tom.  He truly thought his boy had been hung right there in that dirty Virginia City alley.   They'd hung him right in front of his eyes.”

 

Shocked by the turn of events, Adam Cartwright faced his tormentor.   “Why?  Why'd you do this?”

 

Enraged by Adam's innocent behavior, Seth glared back at him.  “Because I wanted your old man to suffer.   I wanted him to suffer like I did.   So I kidnapped you and Tom became you.   We planned everything including the hangin ’.  It was a bonus when you woke up and could remember nothin’.   We brought you along slow, and you did just what you was supposed to do.  Ole’ man Cartwright died at the hand of his own beloved son.”

 

Unable to take the sneering face any longer, Adam glanced away.  The lies Seth Johnson had told him played through his mind and the anger in Adam’s soul grew.  In disbelief and confusion, Adam again looked down to his father’s still form.

 

Seth Johnson was enjoying Adam’s torment and continued to twist the mental knife he used to cut his victim to the core.  “And those brothers of yours crying when they had to cut that body down, while your old man was on his knees in the street.   It shore was a beautiful picture.”

 

Slowly Adam turned back to the man who had orchestrated the death of his father.   Adam’s eyes were cold and emotionless as he looked from his father’s body to the man who had caused his family so much pain.   Cocking his revolver he pointed it towards Seth and Bobbie Joe.

 

“You won’t use that Cartwright.  A Cartwright won’t kill a man in cold blood.”  Still grinning, Seth then began to laugh out loud as he reached down to daring to touch Adam's father’s body.

 

Without hesitation, Adam coolly pulled the trigger and both men were dead in seconds.   Dismayed by his earlier actions, Adam dropped the gun from his hand and moved over to his father's body.  While he made his way toward his father’s battered body he noticed that his father’s body was lying on a freshly filled grave.   His eyes traveled to the upward to the headstone, which read:

 

Adam Cartwright

Beloved son and brother.

 

Adam closed his eyes in anguish, Oh Pa !   He could only imagine the torment his father and brothers must've been through.  Looking down he dropped to his knees and cried, “Pa…” 

 

Then he reached down and pulled his father into his arms, murmuring over and over, “I’m sorry Pa, I’m so sorry.” Sobbing, Adam dropped his head and pulled his father closer.

 

Painfully Ben opened his eyes and felt arms hugging him tight.  Then he heard the sobs of his eldest son and whispered, “Adam?”

 

Hearing a faint deep voice, Adam raised his head.  “Pa?”

 

Ben forced a split lip into a small smile; his son's one word was the sweetest music to his ears.   “Yes son, it’s Pa.

 

Adam reached down and lightly touched his father’s battered face.    “I have to get you to a doctor, Pa.

 

Ben could not contain the groan that escaped his lips when Adam picked him up from the ground.   That thought was the last Ben was aware of for more than a week.  

 

Adam Cartwright slowly paced back and forth across the hardwood floor in Paul Martin’s office.   He knew his father was badly injured and the town doctor had already informed him he wasn’t sure his father would make it.   The sheriff had sent a rider out to the Ponderosa to fetch Hoss and Little Joe, and Adam was apprehensive as he watched his brothers ride into town.  How am I going to tell them?  How can I tell them, I've done this to Pa?

 

Hoss and Little Joe Cartwright burst into the small parlor room, both stopping dead in their tracks when they saw their older brother standing before them.

 

With just a small hesitation, Hoss quickly stepped forward, “Adam?”

 

Self-consciously, Adam smiled with tears in his eyes.  “Yeah, Hoss it’s me.”

 

Hoss suddenly enveloped his brother in a huge bear hug nearly squeezing the air from the other one's lungs.  More uncertain, Joe hung back from the warm scene.

 

Seeing Little Joe's hesitancy, Adam first studied his kid brother's face and after Hoss finally set him down, he walked over to his youngest brother.   “Joe?”

 

“How’s Pa?”   Joe hung his head unable to meet his oldest brother's questioning gaze.

 

Adam took a deep breath before responding.  “He’s bad Joe.   Paul’s still working on him.”

 

“What happened to him?”   Joe looked up to Adam for answers he knew his brother had, because his oldest brother always knew the answer to any question.

 

Adam bit his lip and chose a portion of the truth as an immediate response.   “Well, Joe.  He was beaten and shot.”

 

“Who did it?”   Joe demanded, his eyes filled with tears from fear, but his blood was beginning to boil with rage.

 

Adam took a deep breath and again delivered another portion of the truth.   “The two men responsible for this are dead Joe, I killed them.”

 

Grateful for both his brother's safe return and revenge for his father, Joe nodded his head.   “Good.  That’s good Adam.”

 

No longer able to face his younger brothers, Adam turned his back to them and walked away.   He knew they deserved the whole truth and turned back to face them he said, “I think you need to know, I shot Pa.

 

Dumbfounded by his admission of guilt, Joe and Hoss could only stare at their brother.

 

Hoss was the first to recover from the shock then asked, “How did that happen Adam?”

 

Bone weary, Adam sat down heavily upon a chaste lounge before relating the story of what had happened to him over the few weeks.  He was totally emotionally drained when he finished his tale.   The three Cartwright brothers sat in silence for many minutes following the whole sordid story, before Adam finally spoke, “I’ll understand if you don’t want me here.”

 

Hoss looked first to his older brother then to his youngest, “Nah Adam, it tweren’t your fault.  Pa would never want that.  I know you’d never hurt Pa on purpose.”

 

But Little Joe was having a much hard time dealing with his conflicting emotions.   “I can’t believe you’d shoot Pa.

 

“I know Joe, but at the time I didn’t know he was our father.” Adam dropped his head into his hands covering his face to hide his shame.

 

Joe glanced over at Hoss, and then moved over to sit next to Adam.   Laying his hand on his oldest brother's shoulder he offered, “Adam, it wasn’t your fault.  Pa would understand, and so do we.”

 

“I didn’t know Joe, I swear I didn’t know.”  Unable to contain the dam of guilt any longer, Adam began to sob quietly.

 

Hoss joined Little Joe in comforting their brother while they waited word of their father’s condition.

 

Paul Martin stepped out into the outer room and watched as all three boys stood to greet him and took a deep breath.

 

Fearfully Adam inquired, “How is he, Paul?”

 

"Well, he made it through the surgery.  I think he’s got a good chance.  It’s a good thing you got him here so quickly Adam.”   The town doctor responded, grateful that the news was promising.

 

“Can we see him, Doc?”   Hoss eagerly asked, needing to see his father would be alright with his own eyes.

 

“Sure you can boys.”   Doc Martin replied ushering the three young men behind him towards the hallway.

 

The Cartwright sons silently entered the room, and quietly made their way to their father’s bedside.   Adam dipped a cloth into the basin of water on the nightstand, then wiped the perspiration from his father’s face.   Little Joe sat down on the other side of the bed and took his father’s hand in both his own.  Hoss slowly stepped up to the footboard and leaned against it to watch his father sleep.

 

Adam spoke soothingly to their father, “Pa, we’re here.  Hoss, Joe and I are all here and we’ll be here when you wake up.”

 

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When Ben awoke he groggily scanned the room.  He was grateful and relieved when he saw all three of his sons sound asleep at his bedside.   Ben turned his eyes to the heavens and gave thanks that once again his family was whole.  Glancing down he found Adam’s strong hand holding his and squeezed lightly.   Adam immediately awoke and dropped to his knees at his father’s bedside.

 

Adam's voice broke as he spoke, “Pa, I’m so sorry.”

 

Ben's hand weakly reached up to touch his son’s face,   Adam, I’m glad you're home.   Just let it go son, this wasn’t your fault.   We were all victims of this mad man.”

 

Now awake, Hoss and Joe were now at the bedside.  Ben smiled when he saw his sons.  “Who might I ask is running the Ponderosa?”

 

The boys smiled at their father's attempt at humor, before Joe replied in mock defense.   Well Pa , it’s Adam’s fault we’re here, he sent for us.”

 

Hoss grinned; he could always rely on his younger brother to find a way out of trouble and chimed in, “yeah, Pa. Adam here, done sent for us and we always do what Adam tells us to do.”

 

Adam rolled his eyes and groaned, “now wait a cotton pickin’ minute.”

 

Looking as innocent as possible, Joe began to giggle mischievously.   "Well, you did Adam.”

 

Adam sneered as his littlest brother before glancing back toward his very amused and grinning father.  “Never changes, does it Pa?”

 

 “No son.  I’m afraid it doesn’t.   You’ll always be the oldest I'm afraid.”   Ben chuckled at his first-born's predicament.

 

Adam shrugged his shoulders in defeat, “and always the scapegoat.”

 

Joe began to cackle loudly, while Hoss joined in on the good-natured joke by chuckling and giving his older brother shoulder a slight squeeze.   “It’s sure good to have you back Adam.   Little Joe had me in all kinds of trouble while you were gone.”

 

Adam shook his head, “I'm sure he did, Hoss.”

 

Ben gave thanks to his Creator as he watched the playful banter of his sons.   Life was good and his family was once again complete.

 

 

The End

 

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