Debra
Petersen (Debra P.)
THE NIGHT AFTER “DEATH
AT DAWN”
DEBRA P.
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(With
acknowledgement to Laurence Mascott who wrote the
original episode)
(For
those who might not be familiar with this episode, I will summarize very
briefly: Sam Bryant is the boss of a group of thugs who are terrorizing
I
always felt there needed to be a scene between Adam and Ben in which they come
to terms with everything that happened. Since we didn’t get it in the
episode as shown, I decided to provide it myself.)
Ben Cartwright quietly padded down the staircase leading to the great room of
his home, expecting to find it deserted, the fire dying out. Instead he
was greeted by the sight of his eldest son sitting on the settee in front of
the still brightly burning hearth, a book, opened but unattended to, lying
beside him.
“Adam,
are you still up? I would have thought you’d be all done in after
everything that’s gone on this last couple of days.”
His
reverie broken, Adam turned his head sharply and, seeing his father, smiled
briefly up at him.
“Hi,
“Oh,
I’m just about to turn in. I just thought that maybe a small glass of
something would help me relax. It seems I’m feeling a little keyed up myself.”
Adam
gestured toward a glass sitting on the low table in front of him. “I
poured myself a brandy a few minutes ago. Took a couple of sips and
decided it wasn’t what I wanted after all. You’re welcome to it.”
“Thank you, son.” Ben picked up the glass and sat down in
the chair at the near corner of the fireplace. He took a tentative sip
and, with a sigh of satisfaction, settled back into the comfort of the
chair. “Yes, that’s fine.”
A
moment of silence ensued, which Adam seemed determined should not become
prolonged. “Hoss and Joe settled in all right?”
“Oh,
yes.” Ben gave a little chuckle. “I overheard them talking a little
earlier. They were discussing how to approach you tomorrow with an
apology for some of the things they said. It seems they feel they made
the situation more difficult for you.”
A
wry smile crossed Adam’s face. “Actually, they did. But I can
hardly hold it against them. They were only acting out of their concern
for you.” His expression turned somber, and his voice
uncharacteristically hesitant. “Pa, I just hope you understand why I did
what I did. I would hate for you to think....” His voice trailed
off.
Ben
leaned forward and placed a comforting hand on his son’s knee. “I do,
son. Believe me, I understand very well.” He hesitated, then decided that more needed to be said. “You know,
Adam, when Bryant’s man returned and reported on
what you were doing, I told them that you were doing exactly what I would do,
and I meant it.” He paused, lowering his eyes. “At least I hope I
would have been able to do it. Looking back on it now, I’m not sure I
would have had the strength...if it was the life of one of you boys that was on
the line.” He raised his eyes again and they were full of pride as he
looked at his son. “You had that strength. However hard it
was...you did the right thing.”
Adam’s
dark eyes looked straight into his with a
startling directness that carried with it a kind of challenge. “Well,
everything turned out all right, and I thank God for that. But I can’t
help thinking of how easily it could have gone the other way. It could
have ended up with you dead. I really don’t know if I could have lived
with that.”
Ben
took up the challenge directly. “Adam, you were put in a position where
any action you took could have backfired. Defying Bryant may have been a
gamble, but you had already figured out that giving in to him and letting
Farmer Perkins go could have carried just as great a risk in its own
way...hadn’t you?” Adam nodded silently. Ben leaned back again.
“There could be no guarantees,” he continued. “All you could do was weigh the risks as carefully as possible, act accordingly,
and know that, whatever the outcome, you had done the best you could. And
that’s exactly what you did.”
Adam’s
gaze turned back to the fire and he remained silent for a time, pondering his
father’s words. “I wonder if Hoss and Joe would have seen it that way,”
he said quietly.
Ben
shook his head thoughtfully. “I don’t know about that. It would
have been hard for them. Eventually, perhaps.
But there’s one thing I do know. If you were strong enough to do what you
did today, you would have been strong enough to deal with the
consequences...whatever they might be.”
As
Adam continued to stare into the fire the dancing flames found themselves
reflected in his troubled eyes. “That’s easy to say, knowing how things
actually turned out. But right at this moment I can’t seem to feel that
sure about anything...about myself...or about what I did.”
This
sounded so unlike his son’s normal confident, self-assured tone that it caused
something inside Ben to twist painfully on hearing it. He hoped he could
somehow find the words that Adam needed to hear from him at this moment.
“I’ll
tell you one thing you can be sure of,” Ben began. “That’s the confidence I
have in you. Everything I’ve ever seen you do has shown you to be worthy
of the highest trust. And this last couple of days wasn’t anything
different. You showed the insight to see past Bryant’s threats and
understand how he would really react, the courage to make a hard decision in
spite of great risk, and the strength to hold to it when everyone, even your
own brothers, doubted you. Adam, you and I are bound by the closest of
blood ties, but even if we weren’t, if we were totally unrelated, you are still
a man that I would seek out for a friend. And you know
I do not say that lightly.”
Ben
watched anxiously for Adam’s reaction. He could see that his son was
making an evident effort to maintain his composure. It seemed that what
Ben said had gotten through.
“
Ben
smiled at him, glad to see the impact of his words. “It’s no more than
the truth, son.” He downed the last of his brandy, put the glass down,
got up from his chair and moved over beside Adam to give his shoulder a careful
squeeze. “Are you about ready to go up to bed now?”
“In
a few minutes,” Adam replied, picking up the neglected book beside him.
“I think I’d just like to finish the chapter I had started on first.”
“Rest
well, son,” Ben said. “And don’t worry about getting up so early in the
morning. You deserve to sleep in a little late. And I’m sure your
brothers will be happy to cover your morning chores. That can be part of
their apology.”
“Thanks,
Pa,” Adam said with a chuckle. “I’m sure they’ll appreciate that,” he
added with a touch of irony. “And you rest well too,” he finished softly
as he turned to the book and began to thumb through the pages.
Ben
stood for a moment, watching his son resume reading. Then, with a
whispered “thank you, son” he turned and quietly
padded back up the stairs.
THE
END