Written By: Lisa O.
Email:
Lisa.M.Orcutt@us.army.mil
THE WAY IT SHOULD BE
By,
Lisa O.
Adam Cartwright sat down at the desk and stared at the piece of
paper in
front of him. His heart ached as he thought of the last two days. So
much has
happened within the last couple of years. The Ponderosa was flourishing
and the
Cartwrights were doing better then they
have in
years. The house was full of family and yet so empty due to the recent
lost
they have suffered. He looked around the house that he has grown to
love more
then anything in his life. He knew this was truly his home. He didn’t
know what
to do, they needed help and he knew it. He had to be strong and get his
family
threw this.
Adam took a deep breath and started to write the letter he dreaded
to write:
Dear Pa,
I hope things are going well for you. How are Ben and Richard?
I hope they are doing good
as
well. How is the business doing?
Pa the reason I am writing is to tell you some
very bad
news. I don’t even know how to tell you. I guess I should just tell
you. Your
beloved younger brother, Little Joe, was killed in a massive rockslide
yesterday afternoon. It might be some comfort to you to know he died
saving
I love you Pa, your son Adam Jr.
Adam frowned and folded the letter up, how he hated to send it. He
hasn’t
seen his father in five years, since Grandpa died and Pa came home. He
remembered the fight between Adam and Joe,
Young Adam had nodded and hugged his father.
Adam went to his brother, he smiled at him. "Joe, I am leaving you
with
my baby, please look out for her. Let her know I love her and always
have and
always will."
Joe nodded and hugged his brother, "you have no need to worry big
brother, I will guard her with my life."
Adam nodded, "love ya little brother."
"I love you too Adam."
Adam went over to
"I love you too Daddy." She said as she cried in his shoulder.
"You can come with me sweetie."
She looked at him, "no Daddy, I love you, but I love the Ponderosa
and
I love Joe. I don’t want to leave. Can’t you stay here?"
"No darling, I gotta get home and take
care
of them brothers of yours."
"Daddy, I’ll miss you."
"I’ll miss you too, my sweet daughter."
She rubbed her eyes with her fist and smiled at her father. "Uncle
Joe
will look out for me. He loves me Daddy, you don’t need to worry."
Adam nodded and placed her on the ground. "You better write me."
"I will." She said as she took Joe’s hand.
Adam looked at Joe, but didn’t say anything.
Joe nodded and smiled.
Adam got on the stagecoach, put an arm around each of his sons and
looked at
the two children he was leaving behind. He’s heart ached as he pulled
further
away from them.
True to his word, Joe looked out for her and took care of her like
she was
his.
"Adam!"
He looked up at his sister; her eyes were red and swollen from all
of the
crying she has been doing. She also had several cuts and bruises on her
face
and arm. She had held Joe as he died. "Yeah Bethy?"
"What are you doing?"
"
"Are we gonna wait to bury him?"
"No, we’ll bury him up with Grandpa and Hoss, his mother is up there
as
well."
The Cartwrights held a service for Joe,
they
wanted it simple, but he had mad far too many friends for it to be a
simple
one. Afterwards they tried to get back to a normal life, but the void
left by
Joe was taking a toll on all of them. It was like the heart of the
family was
stolen from them. Even Jamie’s baby, who was only two
sensed something wrong, he didn’t make any noise like he felt the
despair of
the adults around him. They could still feel Joe in the house and hear
his
laughter. No one seemed to want to take the reins over. They needed a
leader,
and none of them seemed to be able to do it. They needed Adam.
Ben Cartwright ran into the house with the mail in his hand. He
slammed the
door shut behind him. "Don’t slam the door, Ben!" His father yelled,
like he always does.
"Sorry, Pa" Ben yelled back, then went to him and handed the mail
over to him. "Here is the mail
Adam nodded, "sure son."
Ben tore opened the letter, he missed his brother and sister and he
couldn’t
wait for their letters. He read it and smiled at the mention of Bethy and of all of the kids that Uncle Jamie
had. Then he
paled as he read the rest of the letter. He was shaking as he looked at
his
father, who was busy reading other mail. How would his father handle
this?
"Pa" he said softly. "I think you need to read this
Adam nodded, "just tell me what it says son."
"No, Pa no. I think you better read this
Adam looked up, he had heard the quiver in his son’s voice, and he
frowned
when he saw the tears in his face. "Is it Bethy?"
"No sir." He handed the letter to his father, then
sat down.
Adam looked at the letter and started to read it. He paled and
collapsed in
his seat when he read the part about Joe. He read it again and again,
‘your
beloved younger brother little Joe was killed’. He couldn’t believe
what he was
reading. Not Joe, not little Joe. It just can’t be true. Joe has been
threw
more then any of the others, he was suppose to live to be an old man.
Adam
can’t believe that a rockslide could take his brother from him. Adam
took a
deep breath and tried to gather himself. He shook his head sadly, first
Hoss,
then Pa, and now little Joe. He closed his eyes and could see Joe in
front of
him. He could see that winning smile and his sparkling green eyes. He
could
even hear that damn giggle of his.
Richard came in; he saw both his brother and his father crying. Ben
looked
at him, "Richard, uh Uncle Joe was killed." He said simply.
Adam looked up at his two boys, "we haveto
go
back. I won’t force you two to go back, but I must."
"Will you come back Pa?" Ben asked.
Adam shook his head, "no son. I won’t come home again."
"Why not Pa?" Ben asked.
"It’s where I belong now. I am the only one left. I have no choice
boys. Your Grandpa intended for that ranch to be here for his sons, his
son’s
children, their children and so on. I know that Jamie is a smart man,
and there
is James and your brother there as well." Adam shook his head as he
tried
to explain to his two sons why he must go home. "I helped build that
ranch, I know all there is to know about it. I need to run it. Pa would
want me
too. So would Joe. Besides your sister needs me."
Richard straightened his shoulders and looked at his father, "then I
will go as well Pa’. After all when family needs each other family
needs each
other."
Adam looked at him, at 19 he was turning into a man right before
Adam’s
eyes.
Ben, who was 20, looked around their home. He knew his father’s
business was
in trouble and he was on the verge of loosing it all. Maybe going back
to the
Ponderosa was what they all needed. Besides he missed his sister and
brother
bad. He nodded and looked at Adam, "I’m with ya Pa all the way."
Adam smiled threw his tears. He felt nothing but love and pride for
these
two boys before him. He lowered his eyes and again red the letter, he
started
to sob as he realized he would never see his brother again.
Ben and Richard left the room quietly so their father could grieve.
Adam closed his eyes and hid his face in hands. With his eyes shut
he could
see the Ponderosa like it was before he left, with his father, and Hoss
and
Little Joe. They had such good times even when they fought they were
still
happy. Adam signed as he remembered how much him
and
Joe fought. When Hoss was not there they were always at each other. He
thought
back to when Joe was first born, he was so little and yet so strong. He
quickly
captured all of their hearts, including Adam who at first had tried not
to love
his new brother. Soon though them green
eyes of his
had Adam wrapped as well. There was nothing he wouldn’t do for Joe and
nothing
that Joe wouldn’t do for Adam.
‘Oh God how can he be gone’ Adam thought as he shook his head sadly.
He stood up and started the preparations to leave for
James came running into the house. "Adam!" He
shouted.
Adam looked up from the paper work, "yes James?"
"Here, it’s a letter from your
Adam smiled as he opened the letter and red it.
Dear Adam,
I received your letter and the bad news it contained. We will be
coming
home as soon as we can. Keep an eye on
your sister
for me. I should be
there within a month after you receive
this letter.
I am selling my home
here.
My business was not doing real good as it was.
Adam grinned, this was good. They needed his father very bad. "Good
news?" James asked
Adam nodded, "he’s comin’ home."
James grinned, "good."
"Where’s Bethy and Marie?"
"Marie is in the kitchen with Lu Chang, and I ain’t
sure were Bethy is."
At that point Bethy walked in, "Hello."
She greeted her brother and cousin.
"Where ya’ been?" Adam asked as James slipped out of the room, he
knew there would be a fight. Ever since his father passed away Bethy was out of control.
"Just out." She answered simply.
"Out where?"
She shrugged and turned to go upstairs.
"
She stopped and looked at him.
"I got a letter from Pa’, he’s coming home."
She stared at him, as a smile played on her lips for the first time
since
Joe died. "Really?"
Adam nodded. "Yeah, and Ben and Richard are coming too. They’re gonna stay for good. Pa’s gonna
run the ranch."
"Because Uncle Joe died and Pa’s the only one left that can do it
right?"
Adam nodded as he stood up and walked over to her. "It’ll be okay
She frowned and looked away from her brother.
That night the family celebrated the news that Adam would be coming
home.
Adam frowned as he looked over his paper work, he wondered if he was
going
to be able to leave when he wanted to. He was having doubts on packing
up and
leaving his home, he loved it here and even though he was struggling he
felt
that it might bounce back. Then his mind went to the Ponderosa and his
family;
he could see them in front of him. He didn’t know if he would be strong
enough
to run it without his brothers and father. He knew the ranch would
bring back
so many memories some good and some bad. A lot has changed, he knew
that. The
question was: was he up to the change? He was older now and all by
himself, he
hasn’t run the ranch now for more years then he could remember. He knew
his
children would be a huge help and as would James and Marie, Joe did a
good job
with the two of them. Then there was Josh, he was Hoss’ child and he
never knew
his father, Hoss had died before he ever had a chance to meet his only
child.
The last time Adam was home the boy reminded him so much of his brother
it was
scary. He never really knew Jamie, since Pa adopted him after he left
home, but
Joe always wrote fine things about the young man.
Adam signed and went up to bed; he lay in bed staring at the ceiling
for a
long time. He finally fell into a reckless sleep.
"Adam!"
Adam rolled over and ignored the annoying voice that was trying to
wake him.
"Adam, come on get up. We gotta talk."
Adam frowned as he opened his eyes, he didn’t see anything, but then
a
figure came into view.
"Hey this is a switch huh? Me waking up you."
Adam sat up quickly as his eyes focused on the dark figure.
Joe grinned as he saw his brother’s confused look. "It’s me Adam."
Adam shook his head.
"It is big brother."
"No Joe you’re dead."
Joe nodded as the smiled left his face, "yeah I am."
"Then am I going crazy?"
Joe shook his head, "no Adam you ain’t
going
crazy."
"What are you doing here?"
"I think you know."
"How’s Pa’ and Hoss?"
"They’re good, they miss everyone, but they’re okay."
"Joe what are you doing here? Am I going to die?"
"No, Adam. Like I said I think you know why I’m here."
"Joe don’t talk in riddles. What are you
doing
here?’
Joe frowned, "I came to yell at you Adam."
Adam stared at him, "what?’
"What is your problem?"
"What do you mean Joe?"
"Why aren’t you home yet?"
Adam shrugged.
"Are you scared Adam?"
Adam took a deep breath, "I guess I am. I mean Joe all of ya’ are
gone.
I don’t know if I got the strength to do what needs to be done."
Joe walked over and sat next to his brother, "you do. You’re the
strongest of all of us. You always have been. You must go home Adam."
"But what if I fail?"
"Adam you don’t fail. It is against your better judgement
to fail. Besides there is more to loose then the
ranch."
"What do you mean?"
"I mean your daughter Adam.
Adam had started to cry as he listened to Joe. "Are you sure Joe?"
Joe nodded, "you have to hurry Adam. I have to leave soon. I’ve been
watching her, but I can’t much longer."
Adam nodded, "then I will leave tomorrow. I wish you weren’t gone
Joe." He said as his voice caught.
Joe nodded, "I know."
"There’s so much I’ve never told you that I should have. Like how
much
I love you and how proud I was of you. You turned out to be a hell of a
man."
Joe grinned, "I knew how you felt. I love you Adam. Go home okay?"
Adam bolted up in bed, confused. He looked around for Joe. It was a
dream,
but so real. "I’ll go home Joe." He cried, "it’s
my turn to look out for your children like you did mine."
Adam and his two sons left for
They arrived in
As they went they livery stable to rent a wagon, someone called out
to Adam.
"Adam Cartwright!"
Adam stopped at the familiar voice. He turned and grinned as he saw
Roy
Coffee. Adam rushed over to the old friend and took him in a warm
embrace.
After they parted Adam introduced his sons.
"What are you doing here?"
Adam frowned, "came to take over the ranch."
Adam nodded, "well I better go. I want to see my kids."
Adam rode into the yard and stared at the house, he could see Joe
and Hoss
running out of it.
He stopped the wagon and went in, as
soon as he
entered the house the memories once again insulted him.
Adam jr. looked up as the door opened,
he jumped up
when he saw his father. "Pa’!" He yelled and ran to him and threw his
arms around his father. "Thank
Adam looked at his oldest and grinned, he was crying, "oh son, I am thrilled to see you."
Adam JR then took each of his brothers in his arms.
"Where’s your sister?" Adam asked.
A.J. frowned, "I ain’t sure Pa’. She
ran out
of here about two hours ago."
"Uncle Adam!" James exclaimed as he and Marie came in and ran to
their Uncle. Soon the whole family except
"DADDY!" She screamed and ran to him and
threw herself on him and hugged him tight as she started to cry.
Adam squeezed her tight and started to cry as well. "Oh baby, I love
you."
She didn’t answer him, just cried and hugged him.
"Let me see you child."
She stepped back and looked at him.
"God you’re beautiful."
"Oh Daddy, I didn’t think you were gonna
come."
He smiled, "I had to come."
"Are you going to leave?"
"No, never."
She hugged him again. "I love you Daddy."
He nodded, "I know you do."
The next day after everyone left Adam sat at his father’s desk and
looked
over the paper work.
"Pa’ where is Joe?" Adam asked as he looked over his father’s
shoulder and read the paperwork he was working on.
Ben looked at him; "do you mind son?"
Adam signed and stepped back, "Where is
Joe
Pa’?"
"He’s with Hoss, I suppose. Why?’
"I think we should talk to him Pa’."
"Why?"
"He hasn’t been pulling his weight. He’s twenty now Pa’, he needs to
grow up."
"He’s doing fine son."
"No he ain’t."
Hoss walked in shortly followed by Joe.
Adam looked at both of his brothers; "did you fix that fence Joe?"
Adam demanded.
Joe frowned at his brother’s tone. "I forgot about it Adam."
"Why?"
"I don’t know, jus’ did.’
"Damn Joe, can’t you do anything right?’
Joe got angry quickly, he hated when his brother questioned him.
"I’ll
do it tomorrow Adam, now leave me alone."
Adam shook his head.
Joe looked at Ben, "Pa’, tell your son
to
leave me alone."
Ben looked up, "what?’
Joe rolled his eyes and walked away.
"Joe!" Adam called, as he came over to his brother.
Joe looked at him, "what do you want now Adam?"
"I want you to do your part around here."
And I want you to lay off."
"Well I ain’t gonna
let that happen. I am sick of picking up after you."
"Then don’t! No one asked you too."
Adam also got mad, "no, but someone hasto."
"No, no one does."
"Yes we do Joe. You don’t do your work anymore. You’re lazy."
Ben stood up as Joe’s eyes blazed over with anger. "That’s enough,
both
of you.’
"But Pa’, I didn’t do anything." Joe said.
"That’s the problem!" Adam snapped, "you
don’t do nothing!"
Joe glared at him, "shut up!"
Ben shook his head; "I said that’s enough. Now
both
of you stop it."
"But Pa’, he started it. All I did was come home." Joe said.
Ben looked at him, "I said that is enough Joe."
Joe shook his head, "Pa’ he had no right to say what he said."
"I have every right to, you little runt!" Adam snapped. "You
don’t pull your own wake and I am sick of it!"
"I do pull my weight Adam! I do all of the horses. So what if I
forgot
to fix a fence. I’ll do it tomorrow."
"Yeah sure you will!"
"Leave me alone!"
"No Joseph, your lazy and I am tired of
it. I ain’t doing your work no more, you
will."
"I know I will, now shut up!"
Adam shook his head, "you ain’t gonna change, you’ll
always be
lazy.’
Joe went after him, before Ben could stop him, he punched Adam in
the jaw, Adam hit him back. Joe went after
him as he did Ben grabbed him, Adam swung
and hit his brother before while Ben held
him still. Joe jerked loose of his father and went after his brother
again, but
Ben stepped in between them and Joe’s fist made contact with his
father’s face.
Joe froze, as did both of his brothers.
Ben had fallen, but was slowly getting up.
Joe swallowed, "I’m sorry Pa’, I was
trying to
hit Adam, not you." He looked at Adam like it was his fault.
Ben stood in front of his youngest son, he was mad.
Joe looked at him, "it ain’t my fault
Pa’, it’s Adam’s"
"It ain’t my fault." Adam snapped.
"Yes it is!"
Ben shook his head, he saw red and before he could stop himself he
backhanded his son so hard Joe fell.
The room was consumed by a great silence.
Joe stood up and looked at his father as his eyes glistened with
tears. He
rubbed his cheek, "why did you do that Pa’?"
Ben shook his head, now he was angry with himself and he could not
look at
his son, "go to your room Joe."
Joe stared at him, "what?"
"Just get out of my sight Joe!"
Joe stared in shock at his father, but the turned and went up to his
room.
Adam frowned, he didn’t want this. "Pa’ I’m sorry."
Ben turned to his oldest son, "Adam don’t
take
this wrong, but get out of my sight."
Adam frowned and nodded, he went to his room, and Hoss followed him
up.
The next day, Joe rode out early to fix the fence.
Hoss looked at Ben and Adam as they ate breakfast, "I think I’ll go
and
help Joe later." Hoss said.
Ben nodded, "fine."
Adam, who was still feeling guilty, looked at Hoss. "I’ll go with
ya’.
Three can get it done pretty quick." He
stated.
Hoss grinned, "well that’s jus’ great
Adam, it
sure is. Joe will sure be happy."
Adam nodded and smiled back at his brother, one thing for sure one
couldn’t
help but smile when Hoss smiled.
"What about all the work you boys have to do?" Ben asked.
"Ah, Pa’ we’re get it done. We’ll all jus’ help each other." Hoss
said.
Ben signed, but didn’t say anything.
"Pa’, I was wrong last night." Adam said, "I shouldn’t have
lit into him like that."
Ben nodded, "I think I was wrong as well. I shouldn’t have hit
him."
"Then come out with us and help him." Adam suggested.
Ben took a deep breath as he considered it.
Adam smiled, "come on Pa’, think of the surprise it will be."
Ben took a deep breath, "okay.’
Hoss grinned.
Joe was riding back to get supplies when he saw his family coming.
He
stopped and watched them. He wondered what they were doing; they were
properly
coming to check on him. He shook his head, that
damn
Adam why can’t he just leave it alone?
Joe thought about turning and running off, but that would just prove
to Adam
that he was right and there is no way that Joe
will let that
happen.
Joe started to ride toward them when he saw the dust coming from the
mountain, it was a rockslide and his family was heading right for it.
Joe panicked and ran hard, shouting their names as he neared them;
they were
still coming straight for it. Joe pulled out his gun and shot at Adam’s
feet.
The three riders stopped their horse in shock and looked at the
youngest as
he was pointing his gun at them, but before he could say anything Coachie stumbled and Joe fell off of her and
before his
family got to him the rocks tumbled down.
Ben and Adam and Hoss stared in shock as the rocks covered their
view of
Joe.
"Joe!" Ben yelled.
Soon the smoke cleared and they scanned for their loved one.
"Oh God!" Hoss cried as he saw the green
jacket, half covered by rocks. He ran over to him and started to throw
the
rocks off of his brother.
Hoss had him uncovered before Adam and Ben reached him. Hoss scooped
up his
brother and moved him to the grass. He could feel him breathing.
Ben knelt by his son, "Joe, come on wake up."
Joe opened his eyes, he winced in pain. "I’m okay Pa’, really I
am."
Ben smiled, he could see the many cuts
and bruises
over his body. Nothing looked broken though and that relieved Ben.
Joe looked at his father and brothers and started to cry. "I shot at
ya’ Adam, I hit ya’ Pa’. I’m sorry."
Ben frowned, he gathered his son in his arms, "oh son, I’m sorry."
"Pa’ please forgive me. I’m sorry."
Ben kissed his head, "don’t worry son, it ain’t
your fault."
Joe looked at Adam, "I was jus’ tryin’
to
stop ya’, I saw the rocks comin’.
I was scared it would kill you."
Adam took his brother from his father, "listen Joe, listen to me.
You
saved my life and Hoss’ and Pa’s. You’re a hero and I am so proud of
you."
Joe looked at him, "really?’
"Yes little brother. You saved all of us. Thank you."
"You scared us little brother." Hoss said, "we
thought we lost you."
Joe smiled, "nah, it’ll take more then a few rocks to kill me."
"I’m sure it will." Ben said
Joe smiled as he looked at his family, "besides it wouldn’t have
been
so bad."
"What wouldn’t have been so bad buddy?" Adam asked.
"To have died saving your lives. It would
have
been a good reason to die for those you love."
Adam kissed his head as he started to cry.
"Daddy,"
Adam looked up and smiled at his daughter, "do you know Joe almost
got
killed saving me and Hoss and Pa’ from a rock slide once?"
She frowned and turned away.
"Talk to me sweet heart."
"No Daddy."
Adam stood up and put his arm around her, "listen
to
me honey. That day when he saved us he told us that it was a
good reason
to die for someone you love. Do you understand? Joe would have
preferred to die
and you live. He looked at it as an honor. You don’t need to be sad any
more,
he wouldn’t want that, he loved you too much."
"But Daddy, it’s my fault."
"No darling, no it’s not. It was the rock’s fault. Joe would hate it
that you’re blaming yourself. He loved you too much for you to be hurt
like
this."
"But, I miss him so."
Adam nodded, "me too. Let’s go talk to him."
They left and went to his grave sight. Adam placed a flower by
"Dad!"
Adam jumped up, his hand on his pistol. When he turned he saw his
daughter
ashen face as she was looking at Joe.
She ran over to him and hugged him, "is that Joe? Is that Uncle
Joe?"
Joe smiled at his brother; "you’re home."
Adam nodded, "now it’s time for you to go home."
Joe nodded he looked at
"But uh but I miss you."
He nodded, "and I miss you, but your Pa’s here now."
"I love you."
He nodded, "I know and I love you too. I always will."
She smiled at him; "can I touch you?"
He nodded and put his arms out.
She went and hugged him and was surprised to feel him. She kissed
him and he
kissed her. She stepped away and looked at her father.
"You rest Joe, I’ll take care of James
and
Marie. You take care of Pa’ and Hoss for me okay." Adam said as tears
rolled down his face.
Joe nodded, "I know you will. Give me a hug Adam."
Adam walked over and hugged his brother. "I love you little
brother."
Joe nodded, "I love you too."
Adam stepped back and too his daughter’s hand. "Rest now Joe, it’ll
be
okay."
Joe nodded and blew a kiss to them, then turned and walked away.
Adam smiled
when he saw Joe walk into the arms of his father and mother and Hoss.
Adam put
his arm up in a greeting as tears blurred his vision.
After a long minute, Adam turned to his daughter. "Time
to go home."
She smiled.
They went home and had a family dinner and once again the Cartwrights were whole again. It was a new
generation of Cartwrights, but they were
foremost Cartwrights
and the Ponderosa was alive once again.